Nostalgia.
I just got home. I am tired but the experience today brought back memories, not any specific memory but any general memory I had of high school. Early today, I accompanied my brother in a birthday celebration/gimik day of his classmate. As in any adolescent, growing, teen boys group there are always things inherent to them and this exactly brought back memories back when I was in his age and I was just as excited as him going to parties and events like this with friends outside the walls of the school. It was fun actually, though I never showed my brother that I was enjoying seeing them do their own thing - movies - timezone- PC - timezone. Kids stuff to me but everything was real fun for them. Seeing the smiles on their faces begging for time to stop so that the game they were all in would not stop was priceless.
It made me stop and wonder, did I really enjoy my childhood the way my brother is enjoying his right now? Well, come to think of it, I did, but in a totally different way. You see, I was an only child for 8 whole years, yes, 8 years. My status as an only child gave me everything I want, but there is something that I didn't get to have as much as my brother is having right now - playmates. the whole 8 years I was the ONLY child of the FAMILY - BOTH SIDES. So what does that unfold for me, well for starters, I hang out with people much much older than I am. As a result, my view in life was really a bit out of the ordinary as far as my age generation was concerned. It's not that I didn't have friends in school but it is very different at school and at home. At school, we all assumed the never-ending psyche that play-time would never ever end, with each other starting a match that would ignite everyone's tickle bone. At home, on the contrary, play time begins and ends with me- with console in hand. It's a sad situation at home - it's me, myself, and I. I guess you know how the feeling was at that time. It's somewhat the drawback of being the only child of the family, yeah sure you are spoiled but there will sure be something missing.
I guess I envy the kind of experiences my brother is experiencing right now they are those I wish I would've had but i guess my personality and circumstances did not allow me to experience those and that's a different story all together. Today was I guess an eye opener to the contrast in my personality and lifestyle, and my brother's. We are two sides of a coin - he is the total opposite of me, seriously. He is so carefree, happy-go-lucky and seems like he doesn't care at all at the world. I could not blame him though, he is still young and has yet to be exposed to such realities of life.
Okay, so my brother and his friends watched Paranormal activity, yes, that movie. I had no choice but to accompany him inside because my mom won't allow him to watch a movie alone. That being the case, I seated in a different row. Watching that film for a 3rd time was somewhat boring and I realized that the camera angles are really dizzying. Ugh. My head was aching a bit half through the movie for a reason I can't really figure, my brother and his friends loud commotion a few rows down or the goofy camera angles. Their commotion even caused another viewer to reprimand their noise. Wow, kids these days, even in a movie they could not keep their opinions and reactions in a less audible level. I just chuckled at that thought - Kids are kids.
Nostalgia was running through my mind all the time I was there. Coffee did not help erasing the thought that I was getting old and in a few semesters I would be graduating. Oh my, time sure do fly fast when you are in college. Proverbial statements are coming from friends going - it's like yesterday we were just in the first year and we were taking math17, hanging out together, running under the rain just to get to another building.
time...tick tock, tick tock.
I just have to admit that my time in college is almost over. My childhood has long past, and I have to face a new way of life. I know the future will be dashing. I'll be another person once I face that future. I'm certain.
au revoir!
au revoir!
